Sometimes it is fun being me. Just when you are getting used to medication and monthly implants another lot gets prescribed. Sometimes you even find yourself reading letters which question things you know to be facts.
Well, the good news is that I have escaped the Chemo so far. The Oncologist took one look at my left breast (and felt under my armpit) and proclaimed herself happy with the improvements. Happy??? I am ecstatic!!!
I admit that I am still not really comfortable with all the medication I have to take – it would have been better if it had all been prescribed at once instead of in dribs and drabs. (At least then I wouldn't have to worry about running out of different tablets at different times.)
When I came out of hospital I was on three different tablets – one in the morning, one in the evening, and one twice a day. I could cope with that. I got a system sorted out pretty quickly.
Then I had my first appointment with the Oncologist who prescribed one more tablet to be taken in the evening (as well as a monthly implant to be implanted by a Medical Professional). The night-time medication pile got slightly bigger.
Then the Cardiologist decided to prescribe me more two more separate tablets to take in the morning.
Finally – last week the Oncologist decided to prescribe me yet another tablet to be taken twice a day, as well as another monthly injection (again to be administered by a Medical Professional).
I think I now have got seven boxes of tablets in my bedroom. Six of them live on my bedside table and one of them lives on the floor because it is too big to fit on the top of the different piles.
The really annoying thing is that one of my tablets actually changed colour shortly after I started taking it (luckily it still smells the same – I call it my “toothpaste” tablet because that is exactly what it smells and tastes like). If you have two white tablets and you know you have to cut one of them in half you had better make absolutely certain you know which tablet you need to cut.
My favourite tablets are the ones I was prescribed most recently – they are chewable. As in – I am supposed to chew them instead of just washing them down with water. They are tasty too – I think the flavour is called “Tutti Fruitti”. They are also the biggest.
If you know me personally you will know that I was scared stiff that the Oncologist would go down the Chemo route even though the Cardiologist didn't recommend it. I didn't want Chemo even before the Cardiologist kindly informed me about my heart apparently having been swapped with a large colander – funnily enough for the same reason as the Cardiologist stated.
The funny thing is that both the Oncologist and the Heart Failure Nurse keep asking me how far I can walk without getting out of breath. Seeing as I don't want to be back in hospital if I can possibly help it I am not exactly going to try that. Not having to lean on lampposts and sit on walls every few steps is good enough for me. Don't get me wrong – I can walk a very long way if I need to. I just don't see the point of going any further than I have to.
One thing I have noticed is I get tired more quickly sometimes – I hate having to pace myself. For example – I can only do one big trip a week now (as in a journey which involves multiple changes of transport or just being out for more than a few hours – eg, a day trip).
It is a good job I love reading – I have been doing a lot of that recently. I am now working my way through a book with a title like “1000 Quotations to inspire you before you die”. It is a very interesting book.
The thing which I am enjoying the most is being able to spend time with my friends – both online and in person. Being able to talk about what is going on in my usual quirky way is keeping me going. If something is going well I will talk about it – if something has happened which has annoyed me I will talk about that too. If I didn't feel like I could share my thoughts with people in any way I don't think I would be very happy. Yes – I am a private person but I will also happily share my thoughts with my friends when I need an “Escape Valve”.
Basically – if I don't feel like doing something it doesn't get done until such a time as I decide I want to do it.
I am going to close this post by saying a big THANK YOU for reading my ramblings and sticking with me. I write because I have to – you read because you want to. I really appreciate you supporting me by taking the time to read my ramblings.
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